• for you ! | hi !

    for you ! | hi !

    hi guys !
    how’s life been treating you lately?
    honestly i feel super embarrassed to keep posting only life updates // conversational posts so drop down ideas below ! i’m stuck in such an enormous creative rut and not to mention the lack of motivation- ANYWAYS.
    every idea counts and i absolutely DEMAND something from all of you !!!
    hopefully i’ll be back to posting soon

    –asic signing off,

  • so we are 4 months into 2022.. welcome to a march wrap-up !

    so we are 4 months into 2022.. welcome to a march wrap-up !

    currently watching the very traumatic handmaid’s tale as i write this. it’s also april fool’s day. i would make a bad joke but i presume someone’s done that already.

    it’s friday currently, one of the first weekend’s i’ve got in weeks if that even makes sense. see a weekend is supposed to be fun and not tiring, but real life school is harder than ever. we have cycle tests every week plus it’s way too hard to juggle everything all at once. (the handmaid’s tale is so morbid i’m not sure i want to watch this right now. i’m trying to change the titles on amazon prime now…)

    the first weekend in weeks, but i’ve been sneezing like anything lately.

    • and the thing is, i just got a haircut and my hair’s kind of short and when i sneeze, i sneeze like a violent old man.
    • and so when i sneeze my entire hair goes up and down, my forehead gets a sense of exposed freedom before being engulfed by my bangs again.
    • sneezing is a disease. it’s so hard. especially when you have a sneeze stuck in you and it’s NOT coming out. for what ?? why ?
    • there’s a funny feeling stuck in your nose, your body squirms with the thought of another sneeze coming out, you mentally prepare yourself and your forehead for the event and bam !

    there’s no sneeze. services are closed. have a good day.

    (decided to stop watching the morbidity in favour of “dune !!” i love timothee chalamet hes so SJDAOSFSPSONGNS. okay anyways)

    i don’t have time to read. and i run a bookstagram🙏🙏

    • ( well sort of)
    • i’m slowly getting used to the feel and hectic pace of life so i’ll be able to distribute my time better i hope. (can you feel the pain through the screen)
    • for now i’m sticking to reading on the van, reading between classes and multi-tasking while talking to friends. let’s hope there’s a way out🙏🙏

    i said i’d do a glasses reveal and a few other things and that’s fr coming in the next post, my bout of sneezing and body pain is just a little too much to deal with right now aha

    i finished gossip girls !! that has to be the most anti-climatic ending i’ve ever seen in my life.

    • the last episode felt even more manufactured than the others and it was like they had to end it so they ended it LMAO
    • it was a good show nevertheless.
    • 4 stars out of 5 because i’ve seen shows better than this.

    the first season was definitely the best for me because there was a whole feeling of new-ishness to it. by the time it’s the sixth season, i’m used to blair waldorf, dan humphrey and the whole crew.

    chuck and nate tho >>> superiority in a nutshell

    i also watched a few other hindi movies than the ones i mentioned but i can’t seem to remember the names. i watched hindi movies in the hopes of improving my hindi because i got less marks in hindi LOL. the trick worked wonders though. 8/10 in the first cycle test, and 10/10 in the second one !! the third round of cycle tests start the following week and i’m hoping to keep up my streak.

    • not much of new music because i have been too tired to manage spotify and things
    • but i’ve been listening to death note freestyle a lot💀 and a few tracks from the movies😭

    sorry for the abrupt outro but march was highly tiring but very satisfying. emphasis on the tiring. i hope april treats me better though !! how was your month, any faves, any good moments, any complaints LET ME KNOW !!!!

    asic signing off,

  • if i could kill 3 characters from harry potter, here are the unlucky ones and why

    if i could kill 3 characters from harry potter, here are the unlucky ones and why

    that post title made me want to kill all of them.

    this is not necessarily me hating on the characters or whatever, this has more than just one dimension, i swear💆🏻

    death 01 | professor mcgonagall

    • she’s one of my favourite characters actually, so you might be wondering why i’d want to kill her if i love her.
    • the thing is, she was such a core and pivotal part of the whole franchise so if we killed her off, we’d be able to see how the others would function (or not) without her.
    • would they bring in like a new professor or distract the audience from her timely yet truly tragic death with a new villain? a new friend? or what ??????

    long explanation short: i’d chop her head off just to see what the reactions of the others would be. not because i have a long standing feud with my fave or anything.

    death 02 | harry potter

    • i always thought what it would be like if the “main character” of the whole franchise, the “title” actually, just died.
    • like…. RIP
    • without the whole “i’m-faking-my-death” thing, if he actually died in like the last book or movie who would actually step up? ron? hermoine?
    • as a draco stan, if harry died, its obvious that draco, the real and hidden main character would have to step up😌😌
    • part 01 of my secret ploy to convince everyone that harry was soemwhat of a bore and that the real main guy, the person hidden in the shadows, was obviously mr. draco

    long explanation short: harry dies so that draco gets his long-awaited spotlight to shine. not a sacrifice in vain for sure.

    death 03 | both the weasley twins

    yes. i am the sadistic author all of you hate.

    • literally nothing intended here, i just would want to see what would happen if they both died and then who’d be the funny one??
    • i mean if they actually died in like a spin-off or something, would the whole franchise get darker or would a new joker come up?
    • frankly speaking if BOTH of them died i’d actually get mad and stop watching.
    • how ironic it is that i’m here contemplating what would happen if they died YET wishing both of them don’t.

    long explanation short: we know which one of the two dies. what happens if they both died?

    and yay !

    anyways this was it for today’s post but i had written this a while ago. also my first day of 10th grade just happened like 3 days ago and i guess.. it was an experience ??? fun nevertheless !!

    asic signing off,

  • in:life | week in review

    in:life | week in review

    how have we been guys?

    i had a lot of work in my personal life to get done this week but i got nothing done anyways🤡 i’m currently working on queuing up posts on here and on instagram, so that when school re-opens, an influx of content will be incoming !

    TBR-ED ! READS this week

    i had no idea i would even be reading this but then i walked into the bookstore and saw the cover…. needless to say, i was mindblown.

    • i was so happy that the library in my apartment finally opened!
    • in the picture it shows, “whiteout” by ken follet and after finishing that masterpiece, i also borrowed “me before you” by jojo moyes.
    • me before you has such an interesting concept and as of now, i’m 50 pages in!
    • i also started “gone girl” by gillian flynn and wow… i watched the movie (don’t judge LMAO) and the book hits even harder.

    stuff i’m listening to

    found this through a character playlist and i was obsessed. literally no words. songs like these are why i love music so much ahah

    what a great release. i love every single track he’s released and this is so different from the stuff he’s released but it’s so good. this is such an AMAZING transition.

    -amazing. amazing. amazing. i love this song so much. it’s so catchy and one of my first yugyeom songs apart from the stuff he has in got7

    DPR LIVE SUPREMACY. i love this song so much. one of my faves on this list. “her” is such a good album-it’s one of my faves !!


    • psycho-pass #3: i haven’t even watched the first two seasons but i accidentally clicked on it and i haven’t been able to stop ever since. i’m probably going to read the manga along with season #3 so that i can catch up all the way
    • gossip girls #5: i’m going to finish season 05 in like 5 minutes, i’m watching episode 16 as we speak (or read !) and i’m certain i’m going to be done with gossip girls completely by the time this month ends. i feel very bittersweet about this but those are feelings to monetize for another post !!
    • birds of prey: planning to watch this sometime along the next weekend when i schedule relax time, birds of prey will be a huge part of it !!


    • currently on episode 17 NOW !!!! i might even finish the season by the time i post this AHHA
    • anyways, i just got my glasses done !! they’re so pretty and in a wine-red colour with silver rims ! (i’ll do a glasses reveal in the next post)
    • i also went to starbucks after so long !! it was such a nice experience to sit in a cafe and just enjoy
    how did your past week go ?? any cafes you visited, any books you read or movies you watched?? are the exams STILLLLLL GOING ON?? GOOD LUCK AND LET ME KNOW !

    asic signing off,

  • tbr-ed ! | after dark

    tbr-ed ! | after dark

    10:20 AM | book details

    The ground we stand on looks solid enough, but if something happens it can drop right out from under you. And once that happens, you’ve had it: things’ll never be the same. All you can do is go on, living alone down there in the darkness

    3rd murakami book and i’m still not satisfied. i said i would get more into Japanese literature but i had no idea i would get so sucked into it.

    after dark is absolutely amazing and reading it is like stepping into some sort of dark void except in this cause you LOVE the void. the book is very high concept, and the chapters are basically like the hands of a clock. we start at 11:56 PM and then go all the way to 6:52 AM.

    the book definitely needs a sequel because i need to know what happens next?? do mari and takahahsi go on that date? does eri asai even wake up? what about that shirakawa dude? does he get what he deserve? and what about korogi? is her running away successful or do they get to her in the end?

    this book has no timeline and like i said before, it’s basically similar to stepping into a void and then shockingly getting out of there—more confusingly than shockingly, but still the similar sentiment. what i’m trying to imply here is that after dark genuinely has no ending. we as readers, do not get any sort of closure at all. what does “there will be a time until the next darkness arises” supposed to mean??? how can you just leave us hanging😭😭

    as a reader, i love books focused on characters a lot. i love reading about characters i can relate to, characters i can hate and characters i can just feel neutral about.

    my character ranking of “after dark”

    aka the 1 or 2 characters i loved in the book.

    1. Mari Asai— her mysterious vibes, the thick fat book she carries everywhere and her uncanny habit of not contributing to a conversation unless someone asks her to or unless she genuinely wants to
    2. Tetsuya Takahashi— i grew to love him throughout the timeline of this book. who doesn’t love loveable characters with a tragic past? he is such an icon though. hardwork and going to law school after midnight music practice? if you want a character to look up to as a role model, let it be tetsuya takahashi. plus he also apologised for bringing that girl to alphaville so give my boy a rest😭


    or if you liked reading any of these then you'd probably enjoy reading after dark
    • short reads: before the coffee gets cold by Toshikazu Kawaguchi, almond by Won-pyung Sohn
    • books with a “shock” factor: gone girl by gillian flynn
    • always a classic: the bell jar by syliva path, the picture of dorian gray by oscar wilde, schoolgirl by osamu dazai

    frankly speaking, this is a book i expected to like. there are some books when you look at them, you’re just like you’ll like them. after dark was one of these. definitely a book i’ll be recommending to everyone !! if you decide to pick this up, let me know !!

    have you read any murakami books? any japanese literature recommendations? will you be picking this up? let me know !

    asic signing off,

  • so… 9th grade is over?

    so… 9th grade is over?

    it’s not THAAT big of a deal actually but it feels.. nice?

    an offline grad from 9th actually feels real whereas in 8th and 7th all i had was bye bye and a computer screen. not saying computer screens are bad, i prefer screens to schools but still. celebrating and enjoying with friends was a pretty nice change for once and things feel nice !

    things to look forward to !

    • a blog rebrand ! i’m planning to switch up things a little bit around here, and your suggestions are exactly what i’ll be implementing! leave your suggestions in this tiny form! the responses don’t need to be well-written, even ideas work well

    • reading and finishing thrillers and mysteries bc who doesn’t like getting shit scared at 3 AM
    • anime to watch WHILE reading the books
    • obsessing over chuck bass and everything about him <333
    • he actually went from my least favourite to my ONLY favourite he’s so amazing
    • not studying and just focusing on everything i like
    • working on more posts both on insta and here and kind of trying to get a pattern or aesthetic in both my blog and instagram
    • replying to comments. I WILL DO THIS I WILL
    • and working on a few secret things😳

    i knew many of ya’ll had your exams going on and… are they still going on? have they ended? i am genuinely curious and if they did end// are going on, how did they go?? what do you plan to do after them?? LET ME KNOW !

    the featured image !

    asic signing off,

  • so i said no more wrap ups ?? feb wrap up

    so i said no more wrap ups ?? feb wrap up

    the idiot in me forgot that while making the poll it was time for a wrap-up so all the answers will be used for the next post !!! i can’t comprehend that it’s march already? wasn’t it like new year’s yesterday??

    tbr-ed! | stuff i read this month

    • once my exams are over i’ll be writing super in-depth reviews of the books so let me know if you’d like that !!
    • if i had to rank the books i read in feb, there were literally NO bad reads.
    • i genuinely had a great time reading every single thing this month
    • i’m hoping i have a better reading month bc my exams get over in a few days and then i can dedicate all my time to reading thrillers at 3 AM
    • also i love this template i made for my instagram but it gives me such a random winx club vibe?? even though i barely remember anything from winx club😭😭.. another show i need to re-watch.
    • 14th feb was valentines day but also jaehyun’s birthday and also a very nice day for me. i just remember eating a lot of good food that day and actually going to sleep at 7 PM only because i was too tired to stay awake
    • february was literally just packed with studying and studying and late night binge-watching. the only thing i binge-watched was gossip girl and ugh i literally love the show so much. i’m on season 05 now and wow. i have no words.

    how does drama between 5-6 rich kids make life interesting? and even more, how does it span like 6 seasons of like 30-40 minutes of entertainment each AND ALSO A REBOOT? what is going on???

    all my posts in february !

    life is still going on … ????

    • going to be using this section as a space for my highly interesting life updates
    • anyways i was thinking quite a bit and i realised that i’ve been posting on here really regularly or somewhat regularly even during my finals as compared to last time when i just went POOF
    • and that’s on good time management💅💅💅
    • i have only 2 more exams to go and honestly, i cannot wait for this era to end
    • the last 3-4 days before the term ends for good honestly make me so happy SJDKSKDK
    • it’s like a different type of happiness because you know even more happiness is bound to come and that realisation of all the happiness makes me so happy ugh what a line
    • alsoo- thanku for all the votes on the previous post, i’m halfway through after dark and let me just say,,,, it’s interesting
    the cover image !

    hope everyone had a great february and if not that’s actually fine because you can work towards an honestly better march !!

  • tbr-ed ! animal crossing book tag!

    tbr-ed ! animal crossing book tag!

    i shouldn’t even be allowed to post on here because guess who’s procrastinating again? humble apologies for not replying to ANY comments at all😭😭 i genuinely have no excuse but do exams count ?? when i saw this tag on riddhi’s blog, i just couldn’t pass up the opportunity

    i’ve been also wanting to start playing animal crossing since eternity so i’m going to take this as a sign to download it😩

    Gamecube- A classic that you want to read

    if any of you read my 2022 TBR post, you would know that this year i really want to expand and diversify into reading more classics. as of now, a classic i really want to read is “emma” by jane austen !! i keep seeing it everywhere around bookstagram and booktok and i’m excited to see what the hype is all about

    wildworld- your favourite second book in a series


    it’s ironic that it’s wildworld when my favourite second book in a series is wildcard by marie lu😭😭😭

    the last rose of shangai??? i forgot the authors name actually, but it was practically the ONLY new release i’ve read so yea… but it was still a pretty good read

    City Folk- Your favourite book that is set in a large city

    • legend by marie lu??
    • when i read books i actually tend to skip through places or i don’t remember the places at all. but legend seems to fit this description.
    • it’s dystopian and i finished the whole series so fast ?
    • there’s literally so much ground to cover and it’s slightly high on geographical descriptions so this fits the prompt amazingly well🙏

    Isabelle- A book that’s been with you through thick and thin

    when i was awake at 3 AM because i slept at 3 PM? looking for alaska. when i had nothing to watch online? looking for alaska. when i had to give a book recommendation to someone? looking for alaska. my only prized possession that happens to be a book? looking for alaska.

    Bells- A book that’s rich with character

    • does the title give it away?
    • evelyn hugo is such a bold and contemporary character, she’s absolutely FANTASTIC.
    • i’ve been SCREAMING about this book in like ALL the past posts, so this is a SIGN for YOU to go READ it🙏🙏🙏

    Pitfall- A book that you wouldn’t mind never seeing again

    • after by anna todd
    • do i literally have to say anything?
    • DO I?
    • have a tsukishima because there’s no way that piece of shit that passes for a BOOK, a book that actually got published is ever being featured on my blog💀💀💀

    Fossil- Your favorite history/historical fiction book

    im torn between the both of these because the book thief was the first book i stayed up to finish AND cried for while these violent delights got me out of the biggest reading slump ever

    anyways loves have a great day, all of you deserve a great day ! i’m having a great day (or night, it’s like 8:30 LMAO)

    asic signing off,

  • less than 24 hours left for finals to begin

    less than 24 hours left for finals to begin

    this post is basically my form of procrastination. tomorrow aka tuesday, is the first exam of my final and instead of frantically trying to complete everything i didn’t finish yesterday, i’m here at 1 PM and freshly procrastinating.

    please clap for me

    because this blog is kind of my life and practically among the few things i spend more than 30 minutes on, i figured if i was to procrastinate, why not just do it here.

    • this song is really nice
    • i mean it’s such a vibe and it came thru via autoplay !! everyone clap for spotify.
    • and the dude singing it is also on euphoria so yes !!
    • i kinda don’t know how to describe music and the way it makes me // you // any other person feel but some of his songs, i really associate them with books.
    • for example, 3 nights reminds me of last night at the telegraph club by malinda lo and vampire (obviously) reminds me of twilight.

    the quality content you’re seeing on the top is basically my spam account. here there’s no justified columns or photos taken in good lighting. it’s just chaos. and also a resolution fulfiller.

    if i had to rank the difficulty of all these finals from hardest to not-that-hard, it would go like this:

    1. maths– i’m good at math but sometimes i’m just not ?
    2. science– i don’t like science a lot. as simple as that. but we a lot of time to study for this, so fingers crossed it goes well
    3. 2L– only because i haven’t given an offline 2L exam and i’m terrified to write
    4. IT– i wish the exams were just purely practical. electronic spreadsheets and digital documentations do not need to be theorised
    5. SSC– the quantity of portions overrules the quality of my understanding here
    6. english– i have a blog !!! 😭😭😭😭
    • i also finished reading the invisible life of addie larue and i’m currently half way through one of us is lying !!
    • reading the book makes me feel like i’m lying to myself.
    • jokes aside, no expectations for this one, it’s pretty intriguing and i wish i could read the whole series just today😭

    how are you all? what’s your ranking of subjects and their hard-ness?? are you secretly relishing in the fact that life’s kicking my butt? comment down and help me procrastinate more !!

    asic signing off,,
    1:43 PM.

  • in:life || a girl without a plan

    in:life || a girl without a plan

    happy belated valentines day, and is it february already?? it’s genuinely stressful to believe. speaking of stress, i’ve got my finals starting from tuesday, so wish me luck ! the only subject i’m mainly stressed about is maths, because we have like 5 days of holiday for science.

    the exam timetable is actually satisfying and less restraining for once, so that’s a bonus. but to whoever that put social science as the last exam, what were you thinking ?????

    everyone knows that the best stress beater is consuming 483993 forms of media at the same time to prevent a thought from occurring.

    • speaking of media, despite the amount of work i have to do, i’ve actually been having a stellar reading month
    • !! yaay !!
    • i recently finished reading the seven husbands of evelyn hugo and the cruel prince. they were both such good reads and wahh the concept >>>> i have to finish the rest of the folk of the air series so i’m super excited.
    courtesy of my instagram @/_nikszine
    • cardan??? CARDANNNNNNNNNN.
    • i’m also currently devouring “the invisible life of addie larue” by v.e.schwab and the writing is just so insightful, haunting and intriguing at the same time.
    • also “stay alive” by jungkook and prod. by suga came out recently and DUUUUDEE it’s literally so good??
    • it gives me “dream glow” aka one of the BTS world ost vibes and i’m loving it a lot !!
    • speaking of webtoons, i’m also obsessed with dark moon: the blood altar which is enhypen’s webtoon and it’s literally so addictive.
    • i actually have an alarm set for every sunday which is when the webtoon updates.
    • i also have an alarm for weak hero, but we all know about my undying love for weak hero already😭😭

    [ click here to read more editions of haven’s tea party ]
    anything you’ve been upto? exams? papers? over-consuming media and content??
    asic signing off,